Timeless
When did we move so apart
That all I see now are my feathers ripping through the air
Screaming for help
Yet you stand there smiling
Bidding me goodbye
Because you never wanted to try
Time has bent the rules
And projects our memories on the parchment of my skin
As I chew until it bleeds
I have ripped apart the sky
Don’t you see?
The stars are falling down on my roof today
Scattering
Like the unburnt crackers
Don’t you see
I have burns all over my body
Body, once a temple, now a mere graveyard of memories
I am dressed in nudity
For you to see I am in pain
A cherry wine stain on this canvas called life
I am just a stain, friend
Tell me how do I remove myself
When I can’t pretend that I have forgotten how you turned away
When I died everyday for someone to tell me I am loved too
I have eaten all the knives
For this voice to slither the throat of my expectations
The ones I never fulfilled perhaps
And now you blame me for the shrieks, the screams and the necrosis of my dreams
It was my fault
For removing these peels of my masked happiness
Until I was lying bare
For the world to see and gawk at my spilled secrets
Secrets standing on the side of the road you never took
Because you were scared to explore my demons
Secrets which begged everyday
To find a closet in your heart
Your heart, which you complained getting strangled
By my sadness
So you decided one day to take my full name
“we are no more friends”
I hurt like your favourite actor who killed himself
But he is dead
And I am alive
Am I alive?
I maybe alive
Don’t you see
I am on the verge of falling off the cliff
The cliff whose rope ends at the tower in front of your house
Maybe I won’t die as tragically
Leaving behind a suicide note
For you to cry over and fall into guilt every single day
I will rather bid you goodbye
Just by saying
“I TOLD YOU”
Do you listen
Or are you pretending to be sane again
Because I have been insane to fit in that mind of yours which demand peace every time i say “listen”
And you reply with “not today..please..”
You plead like i am an elastic band
Breaking on your hand
Every time i speak out
Don’t you remember
You asked for a chance
And I gave you one
Which you trampled under your foot
Like a dry autumn leaf which once graced the pages of your empty diary
Now its crumbled pieces
Fly with the wind like the particles of sand
And so does our pinkie promises
That we made as we talked for the first time
We were young
Perhaps young enough to believe the false forevers
Don’t you realise
You abandoned me
Like that home on the bank of the lonely brook disappearing into the forest
You haunted me there
Your memories haunt me now
So this is another goodbye
Which I don’t mean
Until one day I will mean this
And you will look back
Wanting to run towards me
But I
I will be long gone
Like that puff of smoke
Which will spread right over your face
Sit in your lungs
And make it hard for you to breathe….
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